As you can see, I am in dire need of updating the blog. I still want to do my secondary post on my life as a green eyed monster and of course lots of baby stuff, including my apparent inability to understand sizes of clothes.
This is Valentines Day weekend. I am making Hubs a yummy Valentines Day dinner: steak, baked potatoes, and asparagus. Also, making some cupcakes for him- he loves cupcakes.
I would also like to point out that it is snowing for the third weekend in a row! I called my uncle this morning to whine about the snow and he also pointed out that not only has it been snowing, but it has also been SO cold!! So true!!
I hope everyone has a great Valentine's Day! We truly are not big Valentine's Day celebrators, but it is nice to have a day dedicated to love. Also, Happy Anniversary to Pooh Bear and her Love Bear :-)
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
My thoughts of the week
I have had a lot on my mind this week. When that happens, I tend to find even more things to think about, which then leaves me feeling a bit overwhelmed. I am just like my grandmother as many would say. I will share a few of my thoughts with you today.
1. Will I be a good mother? This was a tough one for me for a few days this week. I guess I can say it was probably tough for the Hubs too, since he had to reassure me repeatedly. I truly felt overcome with a hopeless and I guess I will say worthless feeling. It was porbbaly just a hormonal issue, but at any rate I really began to question if I was even capable of taking care of baby. What if I cannot soothe him? What if I just don't know what to do? As I have said before, "What if" is not a way to live your life. The truth is I believe that I will be a great mother. I have had wonderful role models in my life and as I have said before as well, I believe being a mother is what I am meant to do in life. Thankfully, I appear to have moved on at this point from that fear.
2. Having additional children: We had difficulty getting pregnant with our precious little miracle. It was an extremely emotional, long, and expensive process. We remain undecided on whether we will ever put ourselves through it again. I am convinced that the fertility medicines "messed with" with my brain a bit. (Or could just be age or baby brain too) I had many questions running through my head, so at my prenatal appointment this week, I spoke with the office about them. Like, CAN we get pregnant on our own? They believe that we can and there is no reason that we would not want to try that way to begin with. Also, we know the gluten trick now too :-) They believe that I should use birth control after the baby is born, which we had decided we would never use birth control again. I guess we need to reconsider this. There are health risks to getting pregnant within the first 18 months after giving birth apparently. DO NOT get me wrong: we would not be TRYING to get pregnant, but it just seemed as though after all the heartache we had gone through getting pregnant, that it would be odd to prevent a pregnancy from happening.
3. New thought that just entered my head: Hubs would hate that I discuss things on this blog. Perhaps I should keep that in mind sometimes.
4. My green eyed monster mentality: I am ALWAYS looking at other people's lives...how come they have this, how come they can do this, what are we doing wrong. Even though I have all I need in life: a loving husband who is my best friend, a beautiful baby on the way, and amazing family, and friends that mean the world to us, I still end up envious of others. A wise woman in my life has been experiencing the same emotions and gained some great perspective this week. She was gracious enough to share it with me as well. I hope that I have overcome and will continue to work on my green eyed monster syndrome. Tune in for my next post for more on my life as a green eyed monster.
5. TAXES---I hate doing them, but they have to get done. That is on my agenda for this weekend.
6. My heart: I am still anxious about what may or may not be wrong with my heart. I do believe though at this point, that my racing heartbeat is heavily connected to stress AND my constant battle with dehydration. Since my prenatal this week, I have been working hard to push fluids and I have noticed a difference in the pounding feeling in my chest. I am still very much so out of breath all day long, but it does not feel like a band is playing on top of my chest!
That's a summary of a majority of my thoughts for the week. All I can say is how lucky I am to have such a great husband who listens to my ramblings and reassures me about everything. We make such an amazing team. If I do say so myself, Maddox is going to be lucky to have us.
Goodnight :-)
1. Will I be a good mother? This was a tough one for me for a few days this week. I guess I can say it was probably tough for the Hubs too, since he had to reassure me repeatedly. I truly felt overcome with a hopeless and I guess I will say worthless feeling. It was porbbaly just a hormonal issue, but at any rate I really began to question if I was even capable of taking care of baby. What if I cannot soothe him? What if I just don't know what to do? As I have said before, "What if" is not a way to live your life. The truth is I believe that I will be a great mother. I have had wonderful role models in my life and as I have said before as well, I believe being a mother is what I am meant to do in life. Thankfully, I appear to have moved on at this point from that fear.
2. Having additional children: We had difficulty getting pregnant with our precious little miracle. It was an extremely emotional, long, and expensive process. We remain undecided on whether we will ever put ourselves through it again. I am convinced that the fertility medicines "messed with" with my brain a bit. (Or could just be age or baby brain too) I had many questions running through my head, so at my prenatal appointment this week, I spoke with the office about them. Like, CAN we get pregnant on our own? They believe that we can and there is no reason that we would not want to try that way to begin with. Also, we know the gluten trick now too :-) They believe that I should use birth control after the baby is born, which we had decided we would never use birth control again. I guess we need to reconsider this. There are health risks to getting pregnant within the first 18 months after giving birth apparently. DO NOT get me wrong: we would not be TRYING to get pregnant, but it just seemed as though after all the heartache we had gone through getting pregnant, that it would be odd to prevent a pregnancy from happening.
3. New thought that just entered my head: Hubs would hate that I discuss things on this blog. Perhaps I should keep that in mind sometimes.
4. My green eyed monster mentality: I am ALWAYS looking at other people's lives...how come they have this, how come they can do this, what are we doing wrong. Even though I have all I need in life: a loving husband who is my best friend, a beautiful baby on the way, and amazing family, and friends that mean the world to us, I still end up envious of others. A wise woman in my life has been experiencing the same emotions and gained some great perspective this week. She was gracious enough to share it with me as well. I hope that I have overcome and will continue to work on my green eyed monster syndrome. Tune in for my next post for more on my life as a green eyed monster.
5. TAXES---I hate doing them, but they have to get done. That is on my agenda for this weekend.
6. My heart: I am still anxious about what may or may not be wrong with my heart. I do believe though at this point, that my racing heartbeat is heavily connected to stress AND my constant battle with dehydration. Since my prenatal this week, I have been working hard to push fluids and I have noticed a difference in the pounding feeling in my chest. I am still very much so out of breath all day long, but it does not feel like a band is playing on top of my chest!
That's a summary of a majority of my thoughts for the week. All I can say is how lucky I am to have such a great husband who listens to my ramblings and reassures me about everything. We make such an amazing team. If I do say so myself, Maddox is going to be lucky to have us.
Goodnight :-)
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
The Value of Parenting Class
We attended Parenting class last night at Chesapeake General Hospital. We were really impressed with the material that was covered. Many of the things that were on our mind, which may seem minor, were covered. For example, they went over the care of the umbilical cord and the treatment after the circumcision procedure.
First, a local pediatrician spoke with us covering so many things. He spoke a lot about breastfeeding and really provided me with my first "a-ha moment" in regards to breastfeeding. I do harbor a lot of worry about it, but feel a little more relaxed hearing the more medical side of how your milk comes in, hormones required for it to come in, etc...
Once he was done, the session was passed to one of the nursery room RNs, who herself is 39 weeks pregnant! She was also very interesting to talk to. She covered care for the newborn when you get home, including bathing, swaddling, and diaper changing. One great thing about her too, was that she was close to our ages and had a lot of first hand experience as a mother to offer us.
This Saturday we have our Relaxation and breathing class. I know it is necessary, but I just feel like I am going to feel weird down on the floor in front of a room of people, breathing...
First, a local pediatrician spoke with us covering so many things. He spoke a lot about breastfeeding and really provided me with my first "a-ha moment" in regards to breastfeeding. I do harbor a lot of worry about it, but feel a little more relaxed hearing the more medical side of how your milk comes in, hormones required for it to come in, etc...
Once he was done, the session was passed to one of the nursery room RNs, who herself is 39 weeks pregnant! She was also very interesting to talk to. She covered care for the newborn when you get home, including bathing, swaddling, and diaper changing. One great thing about her too, was that she was close to our ages and had a lot of first hand experience as a mother to offer us.
This Saturday we have our Relaxation and breathing class. I know it is necessary, but I just feel like I am going to feel weird down on the floor in front of a room of people, breathing...
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