...but everyone should check out Zac Brown Band's song, "Free". Even Hubs likes it and he is not a country fan. Granted, everyone should be warned, I do have a mild obsession with Zac Brown Band.
With the message of the song, when was the time that you felt the MOST free in your life? For me, it was when we moved to Virginia. It was a very 'freeing' experience...a new adventure. For Hubs, it was the same, but specifically when we were driving over the Chesapeake Bay Bridge Tunnel.
"No we don't have a lot of money, but all we need is love" :-)
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Blah
Just feeling a little down today... Perhaps I am going stir crazy, perhaps it is the fact that I am getting more uncomfortable, or just the fact that the only people I have seen in weeks are my hubby, my aunt, and doctors/nurses.
I am expecting the UPS man on Monday, maybe he will come and have lunch with me for a while...at least I just made myself laugh.
Everything is all ready now. Bag is packed, emergency bottles cleaned/sterilized, and hubby even cleaned my car, so Maddox can come home in a clean car.
And that's all I have to say today my friends...
I am expecting the UPS man on Monday, maybe he will come and have lunch with me for a while...at least I just made myself laugh.
Everything is all ready now. Bag is packed, emergency bottles cleaned/sterilized, and hubby even cleaned my car, so Maddox can come home in a clean car.
And that's all I have to say today my friends...
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Week 36
Today marks the start of Week 36! Craziness my friends. To think, we found out in Week 3, saw our little sac of a baby in Week 5, saw his heartbeat for the first time in Week 6 and now here we are. Last weeks ultrasound showed he was now 6.5 pounds. IF I go full term he will probably be a little chunker...We love it!!!
Still on bed rest, but my blood pressure is the lowest it has probably ever been. I have always had a blood pressure of 120/70 and my last 3 doctors appointments have been 110/70! Bed rest works. I am still having contractions, some pretty big ones and the cervix is thinning out. Mucus plug is gradually being lost, which can happen in a lot of cases. Most times people do not just lose it all it once and apparently, some people never even realize that they have lost it.
I already took guesses on FB as to when people think little Maddox will arrive. Most people picked dates within Week 39, which just may be a safe bet.
Still on bed rest, but my blood pressure is the lowest it has probably ever been. I have always had a blood pressure of 120/70 and my last 3 doctors appointments have been 110/70! Bed rest works. I am still having contractions, some pretty big ones and the cervix is thinning out. Mucus plug is gradually being lost, which can happen in a lot of cases. Most times people do not just lose it all it once and apparently, some people never even realize that they have lost it.
I already took guesses on FB as to when people think little Maddox will arrive. Most people picked dates within Week 39, which just may be a safe bet.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Recall Alert- baby sling
I researched slings extensively before I made my decision. This sling was very affordable, but almost all reviews on this product were horrible and thankfully, a recall has been made.
http://www.parenting.com/gear-gallery/Gear/Baby-Gear-Recalls?cid=tw
http://www.parenting.com/gear-gallery/Gear/Baby-Gear-Recalls?cid=tw
Monday, March 22, 2010
Reflecting
WARNING: THIS IS A LONG ENTRY. FEEL FREE TO NOT READ. I HATE LONG BLOG ENTRIES TOO :-)
I am nearing the end of my pregnancy and bed rest gives me a lot of time to think and as of late, reflect. It was such an emotional and hard process that we went through to get to where we are today. It is still so hard to believe sometimes that we are pregnant, about to give birth in 5 weeks or less!
I had started this blog during our fertility process, but found it too painful to share. I subsequently deleted all the previous entries. I wish now that I hadn't. Here is one long entry for you of what we went through.
Hubs and I have been together since high school. We met my junior year, his senior year, and within 2 months had already said the all important "I Love You!". I remember family members being nervous about how hard I would fall when and if it ended. I knew then and was not afraid to tell people, that he was the man I was going to marry. During college, we talked about how many kids we would want to have. Hubs wanted 4 and I wanted 2. At this point, we are happy with our one on the way!
When we married, we relocated to Virginia and lived with family for the first 6 months while we were house hunting. Not finding anything immediately, we decided to move into an apartment. We were there for 6 months before closing on our house. January 2008 we started to try to get pregnant. I am one who shares probably too much information with people, so I told EVERYONE we were trying. Seriously, who really wants to hear that you are having sex with your husband. Months went by with negative at home pregnancy tests. By 6 months in, I was freaked out! I really felt like something was wrong. Dr H. ran tests and found that I had low progesterone levels, which was causing me to not ovulate each month. I had to take pills each month to "bring on my cycle".
October of 2008, Dr H. performed a laproscopic surgery, a D+C, and hysteroscopic surgery. I recovered from that for one week. He cleaned up endometrious, which was causing painful menstruation cycles. There were no blockages in my tubes, which naturally was good news.
I had a renewed sense of hope. I started taking Clomid as well. Perhaps we would be pregnant by Christmas; however, that was not the case. We spent the holidays with our family, surrounded by the love of our niece and younger cousin. Also, my sister-in-law was pregnant. Please do not get me wrong, we love them all SO much. It was so painful though to sit there wondering, will that ever be us. Will we ever wake up with a child of our own on Christmas morning? Will we ever take a family picture together?
By January of 2009, I was getting very depressed. I always try to put on a big smile and "fake it" as best I can, but most people were seeing through that now. I developed a horrible attitude of "why us" and "nothing good happens to us". Dr H. suggested that month that we move onto trying an IUI (Intrauterine Insemination). Here they use a cathetor to inject the sperm sample directly into the uterus. They used injectable and oral medication for me with the IUI treatments. For IUI number one, I took 100 MG of Clomid for 7 days and one shot of follistim. These medications are used to stimulate the release of eggs. Once an ultrasound shows good follicles, we do an injection of Novaril. One February 1st, we went in for our first IUI! We was so excited. This was the one and only procedure that hubby went with me for. This one happened to fall on a Sunday, making it easier for him to attend. After the procedure is done you enter your "2 weeks waiting", which happens to be one of the worst times ever. I had to take promentrium starting two days after the IUI. All of this medicine was making life pretty hard. I felt so sick, experienced headaches, and horrible hot flashes. On February 13th, we found out the procedure had not worked. Time to get ready for month 2.
Same cycle of meds ensued, with our second IUI happening on March 4th, 2009. Again on March 16th, we found out the procedure failed.
Month 3, IUI on April 1, 2009--blood test on April 15th revealed we were not pregnant.
In May, I was diagnosed with PCOS, Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. I was given an additional regime of drugs to take. (Being on bed rest, I cannot put my hands of that information right now) In June of 2009, we did a 4th round for IUI. IUI occurred on July 3rd. That month was unsuccessful as well.
Cousin J called me during this time to let me know that she was pregnant! She and her hubby had tried for so long. She suggested removing gluten from our diets for the next round of IUI. Hubs and I discussed and we were all for it.
Hubs and I also took some time to discuss happiness and what it meant in our lives. My depressive state had taken over so much of who I was. It was hard for Hubs to watch that happen to me. Hubs was ready to take a break completely from treatments and just focus on our overall health and happiness. The meds were taking such a toll on my mind and body, and surely seeing me go through all that was taking a toll on his.
So, heading into this treatment we had fun. We went to Water Country, the beach, had friends stay with us for a week, we had date nights, and overall tried to focus on anything but getting pregnant. This is quite hard to to do when you are taking medication everyday, but we truly worked at it. Having a new gluten free diet to focus on too, kept us busy.
That month required more medication than ever. 3 shots of follistim, oral medication of Femara, and of course the Novaril. And as with each procedure, Promentrium two days after the IUI. Oh, and lets not forget all the meds for the PCOS. On July 31st, I had my 5th and what would be my last, IUI. On August 11, 2009 I went into the doctor's office for my BETA test. I was feeling crampy and my legs were sore, which typically happens before I get my period. I told the nurse that I didn't think this month was it. By 11:30AM my phone was ringing. My heart was pounding because they never call this early. Dr H. was on the other end and it was at that moment that I heard for the first time ever, that our test was positive. I burst into tears. I couldn't for the life of me, ever tell you what else he said to me that day. I sat there when we hung up in shock. I literally was sitting on the floor of our studio at work. My phone rang again and it read "Dr H". I was afraid that they had made a mistake, he was calling to take it back. But it was all the nurses gathered together to call and tell me how happy they were.
I called Hubs for over an hour. He was stuck in a meeting, but had a feeling it was good news when I called continuously. Once he called back, my heart felt so complete.
At any rate, that is a summary for you of a year and 8 months of "trying to get pregnant". I truly wish I had never deleted all my previous entries, but it is done. We are so incredibly blessed with our son on the way. Our infertility process made us stronger as a couple and I think we appreciate our pregnancy much more than we ever would have. So many people prayed for us and were supportive rocks for us, and for that we will always be grateful.
I cried writing the last 3 paragraphs of this blog entry and little Maddox is going a little bit crazy inside the belly! I guess he is trying to tell me, "it's all alright now Mama, I'm here".
I am nearing the end of my pregnancy and bed rest gives me a lot of time to think and as of late, reflect. It was such an emotional and hard process that we went through to get to where we are today. It is still so hard to believe sometimes that we are pregnant, about to give birth in 5 weeks or less!
I had started this blog during our fertility process, but found it too painful to share. I subsequently deleted all the previous entries. I wish now that I hadn't. Here is one long entry for you of what we went through.
Hubs and I have been together since high school. We met my junior year, his senior year, and within 2 months had already said the all important "I Love You!". I remember family members being nervous about how hard I would fall when and if it ended. I knew then and was not afraid to tell people, that he was the man I was going to marry. During college, we talked about how many kids we would want to have. Hubs wanted 4 and I wanted 2. At this point, we are happy with our one on the way!
When we married, we relocated to Virginia and lived with family for the first 6 months while we were house hunting. Not finding anything immediately, we decided to move into an apartment. We were there for 6 months before closing on our house. January 2008 we started to try to get pregnant. I am one who shares probably too much information with people, so I told EVERYONE we were trying. Seriously, who really wants to hear that you are having sex with your husband. Months went by with negative at home pregnancy tests. By 6 months in, I was freaked out! I really felt like something was wrong. Dr H. ran tests and found that I had low progesterone levels, which was causing me to not ovulate each month. I had to take pills each month to "bring on my cycle".
October of 2008, Dr H. performed a laproscopic surgery, a D+C, and hysteroscopic surgery. I recovered from that for one week. He cleaned up endometrious, which was causing painful menstruation cycles. There were no blockages in my tubes, which naturally was good news.
I had a renewed sense of hope. I started taking Clomid as well. Perhaps we would be pregnant by Christmas; however, that was not the case. We spent the holidays with our family, surrounded by the love of our niece and younger cousin. Also, my sister-in-law was pregnant. Please do not get me wrong, we love them all SO much. It was so painful though to sit there wondering, will that ever be us. Will we ever wake up with a child of our own on Christmas morning? Will we ever take a family picture together?
By January of 2009, I was getting very depressed. I always try to put on a big smile and "fake it" as best I can, but most people were seeing through that now. I developed a horrible attitude of "why us" and "nothing good happens to us". Dr H. suggested that month that we move onto trying an IUI (Intrauterine Insemination). Here they use a cathetor to inject the sperm sample directly into the uterus. They used injectable and oral medication for me with the IUI treatments. For IUI number one, I took 100 MG of Clomid for 7 days and one shot of follistim. These medications are used to stimulate the release of eggs. Once an ultrasound shows good follicles, we do an injection of Novaril. One February 1st, we went in for our first IUI! We was so excited. This was the one and only procedure that hubby went with me for. This one happened to fall on a Sunday, making it easier for him to attend. After the procedure is done you enter your "2 weeks waiting", which happens to be one of the worst times ever. I had to take promentrium starting two days after the IUI. All of this medicine was making life pretty hard. I felt so sick, experienced headaches, and horrible hot flashes. On February 13th, we found out the procedure had not worked. Time to get ready for month 2.
Same cycle of meds ensued, with our second IUI happening on March 4th, 2009. Again on March 16th, we found out the procedure failed.
Month 3, IUI on April 1, 2009--blood test on April 15th revealed we were not pregnant.
In May, I was diagnosed with PCOS, Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. I was given an additional regime of drugs to take. (Being on bed rest, I cannot put my hands of that information right now) In June of 2009, we did a 4th round for IUI. IUI occurred on July 3rd. That month was unsuccessful as well.
Cousin J called me during this time to let me know that she was pregnant! She and her hubby had tried for so long. She suggested removing gluten from our diets for the next round of IUI. Hubs and I discussed and we were all for it.
Hubs and I also took some time to discuss happiness and what it meant in our lives. My depressive state had taken over so much of who I was. It was hard for Hubs to watch that happen to me. Hubs was ready to take a break completely from treatments and just focus on our overall health and happiness. The meds were taking such a toll on my mind and body, and surely seeing me go through all that was taking a toll on his.
So, heading into this treatment we had fun. We went to Water Country, the beach, had friends stay with us for a week, we had date nights, and overall tried to focus on anything but getting pregnant. This is quite hard to to do when you are taking medication everyday, but we truly worked at it. Having a new gluten free diet to focus on too, kept us busy.
That month required more medication than ever. 3 shots of follistim, oral medication of Femara, and of course the Novaril. And as with each procedure, Promentrium two days after the IUI. Oh, and lets not forget all the meds for the PCOS. On July 31st, I had my 5th and what would be my last, IUI. On August 11, 2009 I went into the doctor's office for my BETA test. I was feeling crampy and my legs were sore, which typically happens before I get my period. I told the nurse that I didn't think this month was it. By 11:30AM my phone was ringing. My heart was pounding because they never call this early. Dr H. was on the other end and it was at that moment that I heard for the first time ever, that our test was positive. I burst into tears. I couldn't for the life of me, ever tell you what else he said to me that day. I sat there when we hung up in shock. I literally was sitting on the floor of our studio at work. My phone rang again and it read "Dr H". I was afraid that they had made a mistake, he was calling to take it back. But it was all the nurses gathered together to call and tell me how happy they were.
I called Hubs for over an hour. He was stuck in a meeting, but had a feeling it was good news when I called continuously. Once he called back, my heart felt so complete.
At any rate, that is a summary for you of a year and 8 months of "trying to get pregnant". I truly wish I had never deleted all my previous entries, but it is done. We are so incredibly blessed with our son on the way. Our infertility process made us stronger as a couple and I think we appreciate our pregnancy much more than we ever would have. So many people prayed for us and were supportive rocks for us, and for that we will always be grateful.
I cried writing the last 3 paragraphs of this blog entry and little Maddox is going a little bit crazy inside the belly! I guess he is trying to tell me, "it's all alright now Mama, I'm here".
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Things I don't like about bed rest
Obviously, there are things I would not like about bed rest:
- Feeling helpless and lazy: We are usually more active, so being confined to home is hard!
- Not being able to get up and do something when I think of it
- Getting comfortable. This is VERY hard to accomplish at times.
- Not being able to get ready for our baby's arrival. Thankfully, I had already nested for months so there is not really anything that needs to be done.
- Not making meals: Now I know I listed not making meals under this I like about bed rest, but it belongs under both. There are some days when I long to cook. For example, Hubs birthday, came and went without a special meal. Thankfully, Crazy Auntie bought a cake for me, so that was a nice surprise for him.
Overall though, I have to admit, bed rest has been a good thing for me. It has really helped with my breathing difficulties that I have had for the entire pregnancy. I also know that I would never have forced myself to slow down, which I am sure in 5 short weeks I will look back on my bed rest time with envy. :-)
Thursday, March 18, 2010
What I like about bed rest...
There are a few things that I do like about bed rest...
- Spending quality time with Puggie before Maddox arrives
- Scrapbooking from bed
- Having a cooler packed for me everyday with my food needs
- Not having to do the dishes!
- Afternoon naps, which unfortunately only seem to last 15 minutes
- Not making meals
- No prep work for the next day!
- Forced to rest, because otherwise I would never do it!
Come back soon to find out what I don't like about bed rest!
Graco Recall Alert
Was alerted to this through Twitter today. Thankfully not the Graco high chair we will be getting!
http://www.parenting.com/article/Mom/parenting-recalls/Graco-Recalls-12-Million-High-Chairs
http://www.parenting.com/article/Mom/parenting-recalls/Graco-Recalls-12-Million-High-Chairs
Monday, March 15, 2010
I *HEART* Coupons!
I received a 10% off completion coupon from Target today for the baby registry. First off, the fact that this has arrived means that we are THAT close to having our little one join us. Secondly, I love to save money. I bought a little octopus Baby Einstein toy that I just know little Maddox will love :-) I also picked up ANOTHER diaper bag. One will be for baby, the other for my breast pump items.
I think I will add things to the Babies R US registry to use when they send their coupon. Is that wrong??For some reason, I have 15% off in my head for their coupon. I tend to make things up for the way I like or want them to be.
Like today, Crazy Auntie pointed out that Maddox could be a 10 pound baby. I said, "OH Dr H would never let me go past 8 pounds!" CA: "Why not, ours was 10 pounds!" (Mind you, Dr H delivered Crazy Auntie's baby as well.) It was then that we realized, my 8 pound mark was my own assumption, and not actually a FACT that I knew about Dr H.
Mumsy's first child was a 10 pounder. When she had me, I was 7 pounds. When she and my father saw me, they thought sometime was wrong with me, since they were comparing me to my brother!
Back to rest. I love Monday nights...good TV time :-)
I think I will add things to the Babies R US registry to use when they send their coupon. Is that wrong??For some reason, I have 15% off in my head for their coupon. I tend to make things up for the way I like or want them to be.
Like today, Crazy Auntie pointed out that Maddox could be a 10 pound baby. I said, "OH Dr H would never let me go past 8 pounds!" CA: "Why not, ours was 10 pounds!" (Mind you, Dr H delivered Crazy Auntie's baby as well.) It was then that we realized, my 8 pound mark was my own assumption, and not actually a FACT that I knew about Dr H.
Mumsy's first child was a 10 pounder. When she had me, I was 7 pounds. When she and my father saw me, they thought sometime was wrong with me, since they were comparing me to my brother!
Back to rest. I love Monday nights...good TV time :-)
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
IS THIS OK?
Is it ok for me to just have a post that says I am feeling grumpy and a little miserable today. I am having contractions again, I am tired, and my feet are sore and a little swollen. I feel a little bad complaining about my swollen feet because I know many pregnant women suffer from it worse than mine are right now.
Overall, I feel bad complaining at all because I feel so lucky and blessed to even have Maddox in my belly. My grumpiness more comes from the worry that I have now of him coming early. You're suppossed to take situations like this day-to-day from what I hear, but I can't help but setting a goal of wanting him to AT LEAST get to 36 weeks. Thursday marks the start of Week 34.
On a brighter note, Hubs turns 30 tomorrow! I am so lucky to have him in my life and he is going to make such an awesome dad. I have a secret mission in the works for Crazy Auntie to get a cake for me for him. I handmade a card, since I hadn't gotten one before the bed rest prescription. I think he will love it. He already got his present, so I was ahead of the game on that one.
Well, honestly, writing a little bit took my overall grumpiness away. Time to get back on my side and just watch some TV.
Overall, I feel bad complaining at all because I feel so lucky and blessed to even have Maddox in my belly. My grumpiness more comes from the worry that I have now of him coming early. You're suppossed to take situations like this day-to-day from what I hear, but I can't help but setting a goal of wanting him to AT LEAST get to 36 weeks. Thursday marks the start of Week 34.
On a brighter note, Hubs turns 30 tomorrow! I am so lucky to have him in my life and he is going to make such an awesome dad. I have a secret mission in the works for Crazy Auntie to get a cake for me for him. I handmade a card, since I hadn't gotten one before the bed rest prescription. I think he will love it. He already got his present, so I was ahead of the game on that one.
Well, honestly, writing a little bit took my overall grumpiness away. Time to get back on my side and just watch some TV.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
And it is true...
You can pass out while laying on your back while pregnant! A friend from high school posted a Facebook comment a couple months ago about how she had passed out during her ultrasound, seeing her beautiful twins. I had never heard of it, but now understand.
Yesterday, I was seen in the office for another non-stress test. I was hooked up to the monitors, laying on my back. Everything was going great. I was enjoying listening to Maddox's heartbeat, but suddenly felt "funny".
The room starting spinning and I broke out in a cold sweat. I felt sick to my stomach as well. I tried yelling for help, but apparently no one heard me. I am honestly not sure if I did in fact pass out, but it seems likely. I was in the room for at least 40+ minutes, yet it does not seem to me like I was aware at the time of just how long it had been. Rumor has it that Nurse Ratchet forgot about me.
When Nurse R came into the room, I told her what had happened. She explained that when pregnant, laying on your back can cause dizziness and faintness, resulting in passing out.
Still seems crazy to me. I felt a little off for the remainder of the day yesterday. Slipping in and out of sleep at no will of my own. Hubby pushed me full of liquids when he got home from work, which seemed to help me come back.
Upside to the appointment, my blood pressure was down to 128/78, which is still crazy to me. My blood pressure is ALWAYS 120/70, but still 128/78 is perfectly safe and normal. Looks like the prescription of bed rest worked for that. I am still having contractions though.
Yesterday, I was seen in the office for another non-stress test. I was hooked up to the monitors, laying on my back. Everything was going great. I was enjoying listening to Maddox's heartbeat, but suddenly felt "funny".
The room starting spinning and I broke out in a cold sweat. I felt sick to my stomach as well. I tried yelling for help, but apparently no one heard me. I am honestly not sure if I did in fact pass out, but it seems likely. I was in the room for at least 40+ minutes, yet it does not seem to me like I was aware at the time of just how long it had been. Rumor has it that Nurse Ratchet forgot about me.
When Nurse R came into the room, I told her what had happened. She explained that when pregnant, laying on your back can cause dizziness and faintness, resulting in passing out.
Still seems crazy to me. I felt a little off for the remainder of the day yesterday. Slipping in and out of sleep at no will of my own. Hubby pushed me full of liquids when he got home from work, which seemed to help me come back.
Upside to the appointment, my blood pressure was down to 128/78, which is still crazy to me. My blood pressure is ALWAYS 120/70, but still 128/78 is perfectly safe and normal. Looks like the prescription of bed rest worked for that. I am still having contractions though.
Friday, March 5, 2010
I've been hit with bed rest
I honestly had started to believe that my pregnancy was going to be smooth sailing. Mumsy kept joking with me about how I kept talking like the pregnancy was nearly over; however at that point still having 10 weeks to go.
Well here I am, 33 weeks pregnant and sentenced to bed rest. When I went into the office for an "emergency visit" for a rash I had developed on my hands/feet/legs/arms, I left with absolutely no diagnosis for the rash, but determination that I now had high blood pressure and was experiencing contractions. My blood pressure was 150/100 as of that day and my feet and hands were/are nicely swollen. Dr H said to me, "So you are having some swelling.", I said "No, not really right now." He then said that I was and pushed in on my cankle for me to see. Opps.
That day, I was honestly in shock. Complete bed rest... that was never something I envisioned for the pregnancy. I will do whatever is necessary to keep Maddox and myself healthy, but it is a huge adjustment on so many levels. I take care of a majority of things within our household, because I like to. It is a big change for me to not do laundry, wash dishes, make my hubby dinner, even just get the mail! Hubs is amazing though. He has certainly stepped up to the plate, even taking the opportunity to rearrange a few things to ways he likes them! He brings me a cooler in the morning filled with food and drinks to keep me supplied for the day while he is at work. He calls during the day to check in on me too, which I think is sweet. I have stopped calling him because I don't want him to think that something is wrong every time he sees my name come up on the phone.
I spoke with Dr H as well about still working on bed rest. He supports that, as long as I "listen to my body" and remain free of stress. When you factor in the high blood pressure, the elevated heart rate, and the "real" contractions, I run the risk of Maddox not going full term. I need to keep him cooking in my belly for as long as possible!!
A wonderful friend of mine did point out to me that she was born 7 weeks early and she turned out ok :-) I truly needed to hear that! Sometimes people say the right things at just the right times.
So at this point, I am at an overwhelmed stage of preparing for 7 weeks of bed rest. I worry foremost about the baby. Trying to work out working from home on bed rest has been less than thrilling, but we are working through it all and I am sure after a week of it, it will flow easily. I feel badly for Hubs working all day, then coming home and making dinner, doing dishes, and getting food ready for the next day. He seems happy though- I secretly think it makes him happy to take care of me and little Maddox. I am not necessarily bored yet, but anticipate that in a matter of weeks that could set in.
I have also determined, that for me at least, bed rest has not been restful. I was put on bed rest on Tuesday. Wednesday, I had to go for an ultrasound and Friday I had a doctors appointment. Then of course with my swirling mind of thoughts...I am going to refocus my energy this weekend though and hopefully start the next week in a better state of mind.
To top everything off my friends...I still have an itchy undiagnosed rash. I will be seeing the dermatologist though, so stay tuned.
Well here I am, 33 weeks pregnant and sentenced to bed rest. When I went into the office for an "emergency visit" for a rash I had developed on my hands/feet/legs/arms, I left with absolutely no diagnosis for the rash, but determination that I now had high blood pressure and was experiencing contractions. My blood pressure was 150/100 as of that day and my feet and hands were/are nicely swollen. Dr H said to me, "So you are having some swelling.", I said "No, not really right now." He then said that I was and pushed in on my cankle for me to see. Opps.
That day, I was honestly in shock. Complete bed rest... that was never something I envisioned for the pregnancy. I will do whatever is necessary to keep Maddox and myself healthy, but it is a huge adjustment on so many levels. I take care of a majority of things within our household, because I like to. It is a big change for me to not do laundry, wash dishes, make my hubby dinner, even just get the mail! Hubs is amazing though. He has certainly stepped up to the plate, even taking the opportunity to rearrange a few things to ways he likes them! He brings me a cooler in the morning filled with food and drinks to keep me supplied for the day while he is at work. He calls during the day to check in on me too, which I think is sweet. I have stopped calling him because I don't want him to think that something is wrong every time he sees my name come up on the phone.
I spoke with Dr H as well about still working on bed rest. He supports that, as long as I "listen to my body" and remain free of stress. When you factor in the high blood pressure, the elevated heart rate, and the "real" contractions, I run the risk of Maddox not going full term. I need to keep him cooking in my belly for as long as possible!!
A wonderful friend of mine did point out to me that she was born 7 weeks early and she turned out ok :-) I truly needed to hear that! Sometimes people say the right things at just the right times.
So at this point, I am at an overwhelmed stage of preparing for 7 weeks of bed rest. I worry foremost about the baby. Trying to work out working from home on bed rest has been less than thrilling, but we are working through it all and I am sure after a week of it, it will flow easily. I feel badly for Hubs working all day, then coming home and making dinner, doing dishes, and getting food ready for the next day. He seems happy though- I secretly think it makes him happy to take care of me and little Maddox. I am not necessarily bored yet, but anticipate that in a matter of weeks that could set in.
I have also determined, that for me at least, bed rest has not been restful. I was put on bed rest on Tuesday. Wednesday, I had to go for an ultrasound and Friday I had a doctors appointment. Then of course with my swirling mind of thoughts...I am going to refocus my energy this weekend though and hopefully start the next week in a better state of mind.
To top everything off my friends...I still have an itchy undiagnosed rash. I will be seeing the dermatologist though, so stay tuned.
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