Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Birth plan?

Our little man has arrived! April 14th, 2010 at 8:52 AM. Maddox weighed 8 pounds 1 ounce and was 19.5 inches long.

Maddox's arrival was not necessarily unexpected on April 14th. We were scheduled for induction on April 14th and admitted to the hospital on the evening of April 13th. An induction was planned based on my blood pressure issues over the remaining 6 weeks of the pregnancy.

Hubs and I had attended many childbirth prep classes and had determined that we really wanted to try and have a natural childbirth. We also had decided though that we would not develop a birth plan, as we felt it can sometimes lead to disappointment should the birth not going according to "plan". Once it was determined that we would be going in for induction, I became doubtful of our desire for a natural childbirth.

So, that evening, I was hooked up to the monitors and settled in to "rest" before the induction in the morning. Dr H would be coming in that morning to break my waters and the Pitocin would begin. That evening was not restful though. I was frustrated because I was not having any contractions (mind you, I had contractions the entire last 6 weeks of the pregnancy) and I was "nearly 1 cm" dilated upon arrival. I was fearful that the birth would be an all day event and extremely nervous that it would end up as a C-section. Not to mention the fact that I was starving and could no longer eat any food- except for those yummy ice chips.

I barely slept. Joe slept peacefully in a reclining rocking chair next to me. I literally had to use the bathroom on the hour, every hour, and needed the nurse's assistance because of the monitors and the IV fluids. At 6:15AM, I started having extreme menstrual cramps. I looked at the monitor, but did not notice anything in terms of contractions. Suddenly my water broke! I started yelling for Joe to wake up. I called the nurse, who came down and confirmed that my water in fact had broken. She checked my dilation, which was now considered between a 1-2 cm.

Side note--SO weird when your water breaks. It was a lot of water!
The nurse needed to call Dr. H for new direction in terms of what he wanted to happen, now that my water had broken on its' own. Dr. H decided that they would move forward with the pitocin a little bit earlier than initially planned. During this time, I was having stronger contractions. At 7:00, with the shift change, they began the administration of the pitocin and checked dilation again...still 1-2 cm. The contractions started getting even stronger. I was trying to tell Joe just how bad they were. For some reason, the monitor literally was not picking up anything as a contraction. He and the nurse probably thought I was crazy. I was asked to rate the pain on a scale of 1-10--I said a 5. Truly, it was like a 20, but looking at the monitor I knew I would seem crazy if I said that. By the way, that contraction belt had to have been broken!
Joe asked if there was any pain relief that I would have. Too early for the epidural and they could not administer IV pain relief because Maddox had fallen asleep.

I had to use the restroom again. Joe told me that he heard a nurse say the night before, that when you have to go to the bathroom, that means it is almost time to push. I snapped at him that it WAS NOT almost time to push, since I was 1-2 cm dilated. The nurse helped me to the bathroom, where I has nothing but the urge to PUSH. I was screaming, like you would not even believe! The nurse asked me not to push and to return to the bed for her to check me. She said, maybe if you are a 3, Dr H will approve the epidural. So, she checked me and said she needed a second opinion and left the room. I cried to Joe that I couldn't do it. The pain was so intense. The two nurses returned and did a check again--looked at each other, then looked at me and said "Yeah, you are 10 cm dilated. DON'T PUSH". In 30 minutes, I had dilated to a full 10 cm!

They immediately started prepping the room and called Dr. H, who had not yet arrived at the hospital. There would be no time for an epidural and Maddox was still sleeping in his little womb. We were going to get our natural birth! I had to breathe through the intense contractions and not push. Dr H arrived at 7:45AM, checked me and instructed the nurse to push with me initially and to call him once the head had descended more. I cried, you're not leaving the hospital right?? He was not...Thank God!

We pushed with the nurse for about 45 minutes and then with the last cycle of pushes, his head was ready and I was instructed to STOP. Let me just say, that is not the easiest thing to do. Everything happened so quickly. They didn't even have enough nurses in the delivery room. It was just Dr H., Sarah our nurse, Joe and I. Once Dr H came in, I still could not push because they needed to replace the iodine cleaning solution with saline because I have an iodine allergy.

We pushed 2 or 3 cycles of pushes with Dr H and then Maddox was here at 8:52 AM. I was in active labor they tell me for 2.5 hours and we pushed for approximately 50 minutes. My writing of this story does not do it justice. I need to say too, that my husband was the ultimate labor coach. I could not have done it without him.
As many of you know, there are pictures that I clearly took right after the birth. I cannot begin to tell you the state of mind I was in right then. I barely remember anything at that point. Neither Joe nor I, remember how I got the camera, since it was in Joe's pocket, but I started taking pictures right away and shocked Dr. H. I even started instructing him to pose. I will surely get teased about that at his office at my 6 week follow up.


Saturday, April 3, 2010

It's a Beautiful Day!

The sun is shining and the Easter bunny is coming...doesn't get much better than that! I am looking forward to sitting outside on our swing, reading a book.

Maddox is running out of room in my belly. His body parts appear to be sticking out of my body! We have another ultrasound on Monday. We were so spoiled with ultrasounds during this pregnancy. When and if we get pregnant again, I wonder if we will be able to have as many, especially if we conceive naturally. We are so excited to see him again and cannot wait to hear his estimated weight!! 2 weeks ago he was 6.5 pounds. On average, they can 1/2 pound per week here at the end, so I guess we will see!!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend and a Happy Easter!

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Totally not baby related

...but everyone should check out Zac Brown Band's song, "Free". Even Hubs likes it and he is not a country fan. Granted, everyone should be warned, I do have a mild obsession with Zac Brown Band.

With the message of the song, when was the time that you felt the MOST free in your life? For me, it was when we moved to Virginia. It was a very 'freeing' experience...a new adventure. For Hubs, it was the same, but specifically when we were driving over the Chesapeake Bay Bridge Tunnel.

"No we don't have a lot of money, but all we need is love" :-)

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Blah

Just feeling a little down today... Perhaps I am going stir crazy, perhaps it is the fact that I am getting more uncomfortable, or just the fact that the only people I have seen in weeks are my hubby, my aunt, and doctors/nurses.

I am expecting the UPS man on Monday, maybe he will come and have lunch with me for a while...at least I just made myself laugh.

Everything is all ready now. Bag is packed, emergency bottles cleaned/sterilized, and hubby even cleaned my car, so Maddox can come home in a clean car.

And that's all I have to say today my friends...

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Week 36

Today marks the start of Week 36! Craziness my friends. To think, we found out in Week 3, saw our little sac of a baby in Week 5, saw his heartbeat for the first time in Week 6 and now here we are. Last weeks ultrasound showed he was now 6.5 pounds. IF I go full term he will probably be a little chunker...We love it!!!

Still on bed rest, but my blood pressure is the lowest it has probably ever been. I have always had a blood pressure of 120/70 and my last 3 doctors appointments have been 110/70! Bed rest works. I am still having contractions, some pretty big ones and the cervix is thinning out. Mucus plug is gradually being lost, which can happen in a lot of cases. Most times people do not just lose it all it once and apparently, some people never even realize that they have lost it.

I already took guesses on FB as to when people think little Maddox will arrive. Most people picked dates within Week 39, which just may be a safe bet.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Recall Alert- baby sling

I researched slings extensively before I made my decision. This sling was very affordable, but almost all reviews on this product were horrible and thankfully, a recall has been made.

http://www.parenting.com/gear-gallery/Gear/Baby-Gear-Recalls?cid=tw

Monday, March 22, 2010

Reflecting

WARNING: THIS IS A LONG ENTRY. FEEL FREE TO NOT READ. I HATE LONG BLOG ENTRIES TOO :-)

I am nearing the end of my pregnancy and bed rest gives me a lot of time to think and as of late, reflect. It was such an emotional and hard process that we went through to get to where we are today. It is still so hard to believe sometimes that we are pregnant, about to give birth in 5 weeks or less!

I had started this blog during our fertility process, but found it too painful to share. I subsequently deleted all the previous entries. I wish now that I hadn't. Here is one long entry for you of what we went through.

Hubs and I have been together since high school. We met my junior year, his senior year, and within 2 months had already said the all important "I Love You!". I remember family members being nervous about how hard I would fall when and if it ended. I knew then and was not afraid to tell people, that he was the man I was going to marry. During college, we talked about how many kids we would want to have. Hubs wanted 4 and I wanted 2. At this point, we are happy with our one on the way!

When we married, we relocated to Virginia and lived with family for the first 6 months while we were house hunting. Not finding anything immediately, we decided to move into an apartment. We were there for 6 months before closing on our house. January 2008 we started to try to get pregnant. I am one who shares probably too much information with people, so I told EVERYONE we were trying. Seriously, who really wants to hear that you are having sex with your husband. Months went by with negative at home pregnancy tests. By 6 months in, I was freaked out! I really felt like something was wrong. Dr H. ran tests and found that I had low progesterone levels, which was causing me to not ovulate each month. I had to take pills each month to "bring on my cycle".

October of 2008, Dr H. performed a laproscopic surgery, a D+C, and hysteroscopic surgery. I recovered from that for one week. He cleaned up endometrious, which was causing painful menstruation cycles. There were no blockages in my tubes, which naturally was good news.

I had a renewed sense of hope. I started taking Clomid as well. Perhaps we would be pregnant by Christmas; however, that was not the case. We spent the holidays with our family, surrounded by the love of our niece and younger cousin. Also, my sister-in-law was pregnant. Please do not get me wrong, we love them all SO much. It was so painful though to sit there wondering, will that ever be us. Will we ever wake up with a child of our own on Christmas morning? Will we ever take a family picture together?

By January of 2009, I was getting very depressed. I always try to put on a big smile and "fake it" as best I can, but most people were seeing through that now. I developed a horrible attitude of "why us" and "nothing good happens to us". Dr H. suggested that month that we move onto trying an IUI (Intrauterine Insemination). Here they use a cathetor to inject the sperm sample directly into the uterus. They used injectable and oral medication for me with the IUI treatments. For IUI number one, I took 100 MG of Clomid for 7 days and one shot of follistim. These medications are used to stimulate the release of eggs. Once an ultrasound shows good follicles, we do an injection of Novaril. One February 1st, we went in for our first IUI! We was so excited. This was the one and only procedure that hubby went with me for. This one happened to fall on a Sunday, making it easier for him to attend. After the procedure is done you enter your "2 weeks waiting", which happens to be one of the worst times ever. I had to take promentrium starting two days after the IUI. All of this medicine was making life pretty hard. I felt so sick, experienced headaches, and horrible hot flashes. On February 13th, we found out the procedure had not worked. Time to get ready for month 2.

Same cycle of meds ensued, with our second IUI happening on March 4th, 2009. Again on March 16th, we found out the procedure failed.

Month 3, IUI on April 1, 2009--blood test on April 15th revealed we were not pregnant.

In May, I was diagnosed with PCOS, Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. I was given an additional regime of drugs to take. (Being on bed rest, I cannot put my hands of that information right now) In June of 2009, we did a 4th round for IUI. IUI occurred on July 3rd. That month was unsuccessful as well.

Cousin J called me during this time to let me know that she was pregnant! She and her hubby had tried for so long. She suggested removing gluten from our diets for the next round of IUI. Hubs and I discussed and we were all for it.

Hubs and I also took some time to discuss happiness and what it meant in our lives. My depressive state had taken over so much of who I was. It was hard for Hubs to watch that happen to me. Hubs was ready to take a break completely from treatments and just focus on our overall health and happiness. The meds were taking such a toll on my mind and body, and surely seeing me go through all that was taking a toll on his.

So, heading into this treatment we had fun. We went to Water Country, the beach, had friends stay with us for a week, we had date nights, and overall tried to focus on anything but getting pregnant. This is quite hard to to do when you are taking medication everyday, but we truly worked at it. Having a new gluten free diet to focus on too, kept us busy.

That month required more medication than ever. 3 shots of follistim, oral medication of Femara, and of course the Novaril. And as with each procedure, Promentrium two days after the IUI. Oh, and lets not forget all the meds for the PCOS. On July 31st, I had my 5th and what would be my last, IUI. On August 11, 2009 I went into the doctor's office for my BETA test. I was feeling crampy and my legs were sore, which typically happens before I get my period. I told the nurse that I didn't think this month was it. By 11:30AM my phone was ringing. My heart was pounding because they never call this early. Dr H. was on the other end and it was at that moment that I heard for the first time ever, that our test was positive. I burst into tears. I couldn't for the life of me, ever tell you what else he said to me that day. I sat there when we hung up in shock. I literally was sitting on the floor of our studio at work. My phone rang again and it read "Dr H". I was afraid that they had made a mistake, he was calling to take it back. But it was all the nurses gathered together to call and tell me how happy they were.

I called Hubs for over an hour. He was stuck in a meeting, but had a feeling it was good news when I called continuously. Once he called back, my heart felt so complete.

At any rate, that is a summary for you of a year and 8 months of "trying to get pregnant". I truly wish I had never deleted all my previous entries, but it is done. We are so incredibly blessed with our son on the way. Our infertility process made us stronger as a couple and I think we appreciate our pregnancy much more than we ever would have. So many people prayed for us and were supportive rocks for us, and for that we will always be grateful.

I cried writing the last 3 paragraphs of this blog entry and little Maddox is going a little bit crazy inside the belly! I guess he is trying to tell me, "it's all alright now Mama, I'm here".