I am slipping

I am slowly (or quickly), slipping into a woe is me mentality.

I am exhausted.

I have not slept a good nights sleep since Friday, October 12th. The boys have been both been sick throughout that time, resulting in late night wake ups, snuggle sessions, steam bathroom sessions, and pretty much once I am UP, I am doomed for the night.

We have had a few doctor visits, today's resulting in another "scary" parenting moment, when it was discovered Liam was having trouble breathing. A neb treatment later, he is doing better.

We have had car issues. Like so many... like one where I was essentially stranded at the preschool waiting on Joe.

We have had house issues. Like new windows to be installed. Like a ceiling exhaust fan that completely crapped out. And tonight, the discovery of a leak?? around the AC vent in Liam's room.

The boy's have been difficult. Difficult may not even begin to cover it. First we had about 9 days of downpour rain and they have also been sick, so we have been pretty confined to the indoors. Our boys are not indoor boys, like not even close.

I have begun to use the word "like" like I did in high school. Clearly, I am exhausted.

We have love though. We have an amazing support system. We have 2 beautiful boys, who bring us endless happiness. We have apple crisp, because Maddox and I made some, and hey, what can't be cured with a little Fall baking.

Tomorrow is a new day. Liam has some medication now and Maddox is completely over being sick. Maddox still feels the need to be waking up in the middle of the night. I am guessing because he loves me soooo very much and wants to be with me. :-)

I will not slip. I will not be woe is me. We have way too much to be thankful for to become bitter over little stuff like this.

That's all. I just needed to work through all that night. #carryon